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(no subject) [Dec. 31st, 2017|04:57 pm]
Tenenbaum, M
2017 man, HOO BOY. it was kind of simultaneously the hardest & best year of my life. on dec 30th, last year, i got the call that i had an interview for my dream job—which i had not asked for/seeked out, was not prepared for, and was actually quite angry at being put in such a position. well it worked out, and i suppose i am thankful because i probably would not have had the guts to do it myself. on top of the reasons above, it was poor timing because we had just set a timeline for buying a house. we needed all the money we could get but i also needed lots of time & energy to like, you know, find (& fix) an affordable house in one of the craziest real estate cities in the nation. two of my dreams coming true at the same time but still very stressful and NOT what i had planned.

i am very fortunate to have these opportunities so i’m not going to bellyache about it anymore. i started doing nails part time in february and it’s so challenging but i love it. i love being a working artist and i love making women look & feel good. we closed on the cutest little house in june and we didn’t have any summer fun due to unexpected repairs but we do have beautiful old wood & new vct floors & a brand new tile shower & our house doesn’t smell like cat pee anymore! AND I HAVE A HOUSSSEEEE. that was a big life dream that i just never thought i could pull off and we DID and not only that but we made a good investment in a sturdy house on a big lot & we’re making wise & slow changes both because we have v little money & we recognize that we have our whole lives. we have a roommate which ofc i was initially sort of bummed about but he is the BEST and i kind of wouldn’t have it any other way. sometimes it takes living with a near stranger to shame you into being tidy! he’s part of our fam now & i’m so thankful to have someone else to help watch over our home & make it cool.

i’ve been very heathy this year—aside from the mental strife from being over worked/house hunting—which i am very thankful for. i lost a ton of weight from stress/working on the house in the heat, and my diet wasn’t very good but my skin stayed in check. next year i need to go to the dentist and make sure my teeth are good and then i’m going to start working less. i need time to LIVE and i think a year of 6 day hustle is enough. i’m ready to be creative again, i’m ready to nest, i’m ready to CHILL.

it was such a weird year politically & culturally but i take strength in the people that are speaking the fuck up. i look forward to more of that, to more listening & learning, more culture & diverse voices, more art & beauty in 2018. <3
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(no subject) [Dec. 31st, 2016|07:03 pm]
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i almost forgot to post this year! i was talking to my dog about my new year's eve reflections & i realized i should be giving my reflections to you, dear lj.

while 2016 was definitely a bummer year for the earth, it was actually a pretty good year for me personally. i started working downtown in the spring and while it was hard to leave my old store, i've never been happier at work. i finally got a passport so i could go to mexico for a good friend's wedding in november. since i don't speak spanish & i've never travelled internationally i let carlos plan the whole trip and i had the best time. it was exciting to surrender myself to a new culture and i think i did a good job being a respectful tourist. it defo got us wanting to travel more.

culturally: i'd consider this a short attention span year in terms of our entertainment. we watch more youtube than anything, and the chromecast is considered a sacred family member. we also got back in to console video games, which is somewhat unexpected but not surprising considering we've been so phone-centric for the past few years. carlos got a raspberry pi and filled it with every game we could ever want from arcade thru ps1 so i started playing pokémon crystal in anticipation of pokémon go. i started to really miss our wii (it still works but the disk reader is broken) and we keep joking about getting an xbox but that's not realistic right now. animal crossing was haunting me so i broke down and got a 3ds (just yesterday actually 😬), which i call a game boy because "new 3ds xl" is the dumbest name i've ever heard.

to counteract all the action movies & nerdy youtubes i watch with/without carlos, i started getting deep into the bette davis/joan crawford catalogs. that's super fun, and just makes me look up more directors & movies. my favorite oscar nominee was brooklyn, but that came out last year so whatever. my favorite movie we saw in the theatre was hunt for the wilderpeople, which i hear is on hulu so plz check it out.

i've been thinking about lj more since jane boston (sorry i don't know how to link to accounts anymore) invited me to the secret lj facebook group. this was fun, maybe i'll do it more often! i do snapchat hardcore (👻mayzface) and i preserve my stories on tumblr (mayzsnaps) if you can't deal but plz learn to deal cuz it's very fun.

so nothing AWFUL happened to me this year, i feel quite stable and satisfied in most aspects of my life, and somewhat productive in my lazy hermit way. the biggest fail i can even think of is that i fucked up the the brain & rebecca's baby blanket, but even then i think i did it subconsciously to have an excuse to make them a better one. see, bright sides! optimism! hope & prosperity! safety & wellness! these are the things i want to manifest for 2017. even though i have nothing to complain about, i am glad to be done with this very scary & creepy year & i can't say i've felt that way before.
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(no subject) [Dec. 31st, 2015|09:16 am]
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here's the cool stuff I did in 2015:

had great hair
went to San Francisco and LA
finally figured out lipstick
ate lots of korean food
turned 30 and didn't freak out

here's what I'd like to do in 2016:
get my finances in shape
travel outside of the U.S.
maybe learn to drive?
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(no subject) [Dec. 31st, 2014|06:43 pm]
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this was a big year. lots of things happened--in, to, and around me--and I don't want to put a good/bad judgment on any of it, which I think is a sign that i'm becoming a more rational and level-headed adult. in fact, I think this was the first year of my life that i mostly felt like an adult. I made adult decisions, i dealt with adult problems, and I tried really hard not to take bullshit personally. i turned 29, i've been on my own for a little over a decade but i only just now feel like i'm kind of keeping my shit together. actually, as i type that, I want to take it back. I have a long way to go but I feel semi-confident i'll get there.

i traveled a lot, the oregon coast, LA, tacoma. I was a very productive crocheter, finishing a queen size granny hexie blanket, 3 baby blankets, and countless potholders. that doesn't sound like much but it really is. carl dyed my hair bleach blonde because I've always wanted to and it was a great choice. I nourished my most valuable friendships. I took my dog to the vet and they pulled all her teeth so now I have a toothless chihuahua

i don't really feel ready for 2015 but I'm never ready for anything so oh well. I don't like resolutions but if I had to set one i would like to work on organizing my life: decluttering, using what i have, and becoming more efficient. pretty sure i say that every year.

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2013!!! [Dec. 31st, 2013|08:54 pm]
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what a beautiful year. for the first time in forever i kept a daily journal and even though it's super boring i'm still pretty proud that i stuck to it. i renewed my library card and read some books. i did hella crochet on the bus and finished a huge blanket plus a couple side projects. i was very successful at work, and i fulfilled a lifelong secret dream of being a perfume counter lady (but i have a wall so i'm a perfume jon snow which is even better). i spent quality time with friends & family. my dad & suzanne moved back and i had lots of good visits with my mom. i seent drake! i cut off my long hair! i practiced remarkable self control in the daily presence of jamba juice and wetzel pretzel. if livejournal weren't so antiquated i would post a picture so just use your imagination

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(no subject) [Jun. 17th, 2012|10:58 pm]
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Carlos is on tour which means it's guilty pleasure time! aka: the only time i consistently post to lj. well tough tuna motherfuckers, i'm too lazy to use the computer or figure out the lj app so i've moved the celebration to tumblr

get with the times

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(no subject) [Mar. 3rd, 2012|05:58 pm]
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i just remembered that livejournal is for venting about shit that doesn't really matter (with no character limits!) so that's exactly what i'm gonna do right now.

one thing i've learned from years of retail is that people without control of their own lives like to create something to complain about because it makes them feel powerful. it's the laziest way to feel empowerment. these people are incredibly hard to be around, but instead of feeling anger, you should pity them. everything we do is either out of love or a cry for it. think about how sad it is that the best part of their day is ruining yours! think about all the other people they come into contact with that they treat exactly like they're treating you--at the bank, the grocery store, the car wash, their neighbors. they are constantly being disappointed! that really sucks for them. it's not personal, and sometimes you just can't help them.
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(no subject) [Dec. 28th, 2011|01:54 pm]
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it's that time again for an obligatory post so I don't have any missing years from my lj archives. so much has changed! this past year has been huge for emotional growth. i did stay positive and take the high road. i am calmer, more accepting, less stressed. I accept change without fear. i'm also more accepting of myself. i'm loving my life! i have big changes and big goals in store for 2012.

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(no subject) [Dec. 31st, 2010|12:43 pm]
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i'm trying to stay positive and take the high road in 2011, which will be one of the most challenging things i've ever had to do. it's so hard to have hope. i've been let down and disappointed by close and casual friends, but the one lesson i've truly learned this year is that karma will take care of it for me. i wrote off 3 of the most useless, selfish assholes i've ever met in my life this year and i'm going to let karma take care of them because she is a more vengeful bitch than i could ever dream of being. i need to let her take control and focus on my own happiness. good riddance to one of the worst years of my life.
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(no subject) [Nov. 30th, 2010|06:44 pm]
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i pretty much thought i totally abandoned lj forever until sonja told me that she started reading it. i skimmed the archives to make sure there wasn't anything too offensive and the thought of a whole calendar year without any entires made me kind of sad. i miss writing. i was so funny! i stopped because i feel like i had my heyday and i didn't want to be the simpsons with 6 awesome seasons and 25 bad ones. i don't really think anyone checks lj anymore so maybe i can write here again--squat in this abandoned internet playground for awhile. at least it will help my typing skills. not much has changed since the last time i wrote, over a year ago. my desk has moved from the west wall of my office to the north. i have a dog! a 5lb long-haired tri-colored chihuahua named delta burke. and i decided i want to do nails for a living. we'll see how that works out, i just read an entry from when i was 16 where i decided to be a fashion photographer. yeah right. i do mean to eventually go back and read all my old entries. i'm so glad i have them, already i've remembered so many wonderful moments. i used to write about every stupid thing and i should probably do that again. twitter just makes it all seem so insipid. i was blogging about what i ate for lunch in 2002 motherfuckers.
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